rogue of grey

so i could care less of my rogue of grey hair patch i have growing in almost the dead center- focal point of my hair-part line. I've tried countless of times tried to pluck, pull, and even dye my hair. They dont seem to be getting the picture they aren't wanted. but they keep coming back and now more. more you say. yes.

OK enough of that non sense. i haven't "blogged" in oh about forever, so im rusty, and jibberish-ing. so i beg you to forgive me now. my life. wheeeeewwww! just saying that is actually not as stressful as i thought, well where are the grey hairs from you ask? ME! yes that's right! me. simple ole me. No. correction, complicated, drastic, over whelmed, most read into type person, knows the answers but avoids them from all costs. or lost i should say. im shoving and pushing the most important person away. why?!?! because im a freaking retard that's why! i cause my own grey hairs is what of a point i was trying to come across. i skip, i jump and for that i apologize too. so the point or another point don't listen to the little voices in your head because its you and only you that control your own happiness and i'm pretty sure and from experience i know that you do. and listening to the warped mind i know we all have in store, just stop collaborate and listen, no ice is not back with a brand new edition. anyway i love you brandon frisco! im scared to death of the world but so ready to be so much calmer with you. i need not let the crazy crap within destroy what we are. i see that happening and i cant let this consume me. i need to look within, really search and ponder whats keeping me from letting go- trusting more, because i do trust you. i love you and our family with all of my heart. typing this is almost easier. thank you for being you and staying strong for the both of us. be mine all the time, and im yours forever. now if only i can talk to these grey hairs like this. i love you.